I can’t believe this. What has happened to me? I have become the thing that I hate most. A lying, two-faced, whore. That’s right. Whore. Me, of all people. No one would ever expect that from me. There are only two people who know the truth. And he is one of them. I told him the truth. I told him everything. Of course, he’s angry. How could he not be? I betrayed him in more ways then one. He asked if I even love him at all. Of course I do. How could I not? He’s so wonderful. So kind and fun. So full of life. He is a beautiful person. Everyday he tells me he loves me. Every. Day. And everyday, I tell him I love him too. Every. Day. So, how could I have let this happen? This transformation to a young lady with morals to a slut. I am an empty shell. Ever since that day I have never been the same. I don’t know how I could let myself do this. But it happened, and now that he knows the truth, he will never trust me again. He shouldn’t. I don’t blame him. Look at what I did. But despite the pain I have caused, he said he’s giving me another chance. Do I deserve another chance? He said that he loves me so much and that he can’t just let me go. Oh, I love him too. So very much. I didn’t expect that though. I expected him to dump me and never talk to me ever again. I promised that I would never do anything like that ever again. I hope he believes me. I hope he can trust me again some day. I hope that we can move past this and I can find the old me again. The happy girl who wasn’t self-destructive. If there is a way I can find her, I know that it’s by his side. However corny that may seem, it’s true. I love him with all my heart. I’m never going to fuck up like this again. Nothing his worth losing him. Nothing.